Our family has spent the last 2 months waiting on test results.
My Mama is a lung cancer survivor (9 years in May, praise God) and she was hospitalized with pneumonia in December.
The tests they ran showed some abnormalities and the preliminary suspicion was metastatic bone cancer.
I wish I could tell you I laid all this at the Throne of grace and trusted God every minute since.
The truth is, I’ve spent a lot of sleepless nights lying on a tear soaked pillow waiting for the knots of fear in my belly to untie themselves so I could breathe.
I don’t want my Mama to have to fight this battle again. I don’t want to shave her beautiful head again and I don’t want to sit next to her while they pump poison into her veins to kill the cancer before it kills her.
My heart wrenches at the very thought of reliving these memories, but they were playing over and over again in my mind.
This was part of the problem. I was spending more time thinking about the “what-ifs” than praying and trusting God with what is.
Friends, when we allow ourselves to focus on the possibilities we create in our minds and take our focus off the God of the impossible, we allow fear to shove aside His Truth in our hearts.
In order to break this cycle, we have to allow ourselves to be so consumed with God’s Love that we leave room for nothing else.
But how do we do this in the midst of the storms raging in us and around us?
I’m not talking big elaborate prayers, y’all. Sometimes the greatest peace comes in the moments when all we can squeak out between sobs is the name of Jesus Christ.
Just know this:
No matter how our prayers sound to us;
He hears. He sees. He answers.
This week, we received the final report on my Mama’s test results.
There is NO CANCER in her body.
How’s that for answered prayers, my friends?
Y’all, I know not all situations end with such amazing results. I know sometimes the answers are not the ones we want to hear. I’ve been there too, and it’s a hard place. In our times of uncertainty, when we’re so blinded by fear we can’t see the next step, we can still trust God to show up in the midst of the storm.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV)
Will you leave your prayer/petition in the comments below and allow me to pray with you and for you today?
Rejoicing in Hope,
4 thoughts on “Finding Peace When Fear Surrounds Me”
Nichole, you are such an amazing prayer warrior. I’m so thankful for the great results for your mom.
Nichole, that is such a praise to God!! Thanking Him for how He answered our prayers!
Praise the lord for your moms test results. She is truly an amazing woman. I am so very happy for the woman you have become. You are such an insperation to us all. you truly are an angel sent by our god almighty. Love and miss ya. I would love for you to oray for me. Since i was in six grade i have been dealing with something that nobody knows about. It has really caused me alot of pain in my life. I’ve been trying to let it go. So please pray for me to be able to let it go and to be able to love myself. Thank you.😘😘😘
Tina – thank you so much for your sweet comments. I have been praying for you since I got your request. God loves you more than you can fathom, and I’m asking Him to help you love yourself the way He does. XOXO